So I am all caught up in the quest for knowledge of the supernatural now.  The quest for ideas I will never know for sure without a leap of faith at some point.  Nature.  Even Nature seems to have some aspects of the unknowable.  When did it begin exactly why?  How big is nature? why are We here.  Are there others like us out there?  Don't know.

It occupies my time when the chips are down and I need to focus on things outside my self.  Things for me are no too hard.  I am employed, it just seems that things are moving along so slowly.  I have trouble paying attention from week to week, staying focused and on task.  I have some hope that coming to terms with my feelings about things supernatural will help me focus and stay on my objectives for a longer time than I have been doing.

You see my problem with life without faith is that things for me quickly move to hedonistic behaviors.  I am all for hedonism and all the Greek fun things but in small small doses.  It is too easy to sit around and eat chocolate and ice cream and drink wine and chase younger women around town.  Too easy.  And too counterproductive when the idea is to save money and pay down the personal short term debt and reset this little mouse trap to see if someday I might actually be a desirable mate for a woman more sane than I deserve.

This will all pass one day and I will move on to brighter better shiny things to talk about.  For now keep looking up.  The space man coming for you some day may be me.