Im in super chill mode right now.  Tired and feeling the energycirculating around my shoulders.  Nervous about attending and Indian music concert tomorrow afternoon.  I was invited to attend free of charge by the organizer of the event.  It should be a great and mind opening concert that does not happen but once a year here.  This is the first year I will be attending.  Henry is going to drive I think.  I mean Im talking a slacks and tie event here.  If I were wealthy I would wear Indian clothes all made especially for me.  I hope there are plenty of celebrating Indian Ameican people there.

Also I am making another disc.  This time Simon and Garfunkle and the Beatles meet the NevillesBros and Liquid Mind and Moby. I am putting it on my mp3 player as I write this.

But the meditation I have when I am tired is great.  I can feel my heart rate slow and muscles relax.  I has taken me years of practise and I am still not an expert meditate-er but I am making progress.  I am starting to enjoy living again.  Things have slowed way down from a couple of years ago when I felt like I was on a run away roller-coaster ride.

So I say here all day wrestling with finances.  I just got paid my meager salary from the non profit and already the money is largely gone.  Bills.  Student loans and imprudent purchases all look the same on the checks I write.  One day all this will be settled and I guess that will be the day that I die. 

It is hard to be austere and happy at the same time but not entirely impossible.  It just takes imagaination and some help from my friends.  The budget need not be broken by an occassional indulgence of the sweet tooth.  The need to communbe with nature looms large in my mind during the spring also.  So with some help from my friends I satisfy my self with walks and planning to go to Hot Springs National Forest before it gets too hot and bug-y there.  Soon, we will camp near the place where 6 people lost their lives in 2010 due to flash flooding.  But that was in March .  I think May is a much safer month to camp in the ancient Ouchita and Ozark National Forests.  Then we hot the springs in the city if there is any money left an pot of coffee at the hotel across the street late at night for the sleepy city of Hot SPrings and then the 4 hourride back to Shreveport.

Talked to "Red Becca" at the historic Blind Tiger restaurant during lunch today.  Sam Mason ate with me and Henry.  We talked about quitting smoking and psychology mostly while we sat at the bar and drank clear ice tea with out the ice.  Henry played video poker as usual. 

Tonight Hery plays the Puccini opera Tosca.  I can either take or leave opera.  As I said before the Indian Music sounded more interesting this time.  I dont speak Italian and I undertand the sitar much better that the singers in such operas as that one.

Late now, mp3 player is synched and now I will walk for 1/2 hour and visit with Henry some more when he returns from the opera in which he is one of the musicians.  We will eat cheese and listen to Public radio for a bit and then I walk home and dream about what embrace-able similarities to today that tomorrow will bring.